this may be the worse times of my life everything is just going and sliding all over the place to drains or whatever wherever possible its just sucky starts with my high fever last week i have no idea what is wrong after that left my gastric problem just is more active now feel ok in the morning then headache in the evening just what is wrong the dry cough is just so irritating and i have a presentation tomorrow morning and im still coughing exams coming soon just few weeks away then its end of the semester my previous results just damn it with six papers in total and failing five of them isnt something great because of that ive abandoned the guitarists soon mco will suffer the similar fate i think after the event on saturday nite and i'll be gone i really need the time any that i can squeeze out from my mom told me something unpleasant over dinner she thinks she wont see herself in her current workplace by december ive just got nothing to say there goes one more hope for further studies a thing im doubting guess all that i'll have to get funds myself already living in below average now going lower so where is that exactly how will it be with her maybe future income just 3 quarters of what she gets now where can i go with the current diploma i think is screwed already i can think of nowhere maybe my guitar skills may get me a place then i should get some papers first ive quilted the guitar lessons because i dont wanna burden her the changchun attachment as the perfect reason for it but from deep in that wasnt the reason coming back from china she wanted me to continue but i declined partly because ive gained nothing much from it at the level im at now nine years of guitar lessons with twelve different teachers but i havent got any papers so far i was one of the hardest student to teach in the school and that was the case for like two years learned asturias attempted alhambra now tackling grand solo have my own transposition of yizuwuqu a version most guitarist find great difficulty getting it the way i put it other than that is the petty stuff my tea tray is degrading itself now saving up for a solid wood one something once and for all