a nightmare woke me up early in the morning. one of which brings me back to the days of my poly life, still a student. one selfish guy. selfish not to others but to himself. in it, i was in my usual poly outfit with a haversack of notes, walking a little lost but found the way somehow. found myself in an area of hardware stores which were laid side by side. something went through my mind then, 'anything cheap i was looking for awhile here maybe?'. those words really struck me now. there were other signs at how selfish i was. not long i found a blanket wrapped around me. one that i have on my bed. i began to fold it up nicely and keep it in my bag hoping it will fit snugly. upon opening my bag, saw my notes n the navy blue jacket i always have in my bag for 'boring long' lectures. how complacent can i be. really was of my own self-destruction. besides studying as a student, something which i had to do, i had my own 'projects'. a sickness i had since pri sch. no doubt i learn a lot from it skills no textbook can teach. it has setbacks. i had the tendency to have it as the priority. headphones, seals, art stuff, instrument parts and some others. practically rendered my poly education down the drain. made me think of the people around me back then. its all done. now i'm out of poly. graduated but what meaningful things i did?

digitize 35mm film choose which ones i like and then send for prints more economical

i found two cameras from the recent past about three decades i guess dating back to the rising in Japanese goods in the market and during the Soviet Union a Nikon EM made in Japan and the ЗЕНИТ ET Russia

but gone were the days the everyday normal scenes of people the normal laymen heads down to the nearest mama shop to buy a roll of film with the usual rangefinder camera in his hand then heads down to the kedai cuci gambar to get the pics out not costing much well its a different thing now

remembering correctly i was 16 the last time i use a film cam something of no high end or anywhere near the average cams of the 80s even yet they come out so different from the digi era pics somewhat the valves vs the transistors in audiophile sense the digi era somehow has made something once a prized possession to almost nothing to the common laymen snap snap delete sickness has affected me badly a roll of 36 used up in an hr or two looking back into the past a roll of 36 will last a whole week for my dad even wont finish a whole roll of film on hari raya in just an hr gotta appreciate all that again learning i hope